IM FEELING SAD
BUT
ITS NOT THE KIND
OF SAD
WHERE I WANT TO LAY IN BED AND DO NOTHING.
ITS THE CONFUSING
KIND
OF SAD.
THE KIND
WHERE
I FEEL LIKE IM NEVER DOING ENOUGH.
LIKE THERE ISNT ENOUGH TIME
AND IM NOT SO
NIHILISTIC
IN THINKING AND LEANING INTO THE
DELUSION
THAT THERE NEVER WILL BE
(ENOUGH TIME)
BUT FOR NOW
WE’LL SAY
ITS THAT TYPE OF FEELING
WHERE
THERES NOT ENOUGH TIME AND
THERE NEVER WILL BE
BUT THEN
THE SONG CHANGES
FROM CHESTER WATSON
TO
SUGAR RAY
AND
“WHEN ITS OVER” PLAYS
AND MY SPIRITS ARE LIFTED
BUT
I CAN FEEL THE
TEETERING BRIEFNESS
OF THIS GLIMMER.
A SLIMMER SHIMMER OF LIGHT
GLINTS THROUGH
THE METAPHORICALLY PLACED BLINDS
ITS FUNNY
HOW
BLINDS
CAN BE
DRAWN
WHICH ALLOW YOU TO SEE.
ID LIKE TO DRAW BLINDS
OR MAYBE I ONLY
THINK
ID LIKE TO DRAW BLINDS.
LETS SEE.
THIS FEEDS INTO MY FEELINGS
THAT
THERE ISNT ENOUGH TIME
AND there never will be.
BUT I DONT TRULY BELIEVE THAT
BECAUSE
SUGAR RAY IS STILL PLAYING.
WE SHALL
SEE
WHAT
SONG
GLEAMS ON MY EYES AND IN MY EARS
NEXT.